How many times you told yourself not to cry again? But it seems like you just can't hold yourself back. And there you go, there's a teardrop falling.
Sorry sebab entry kali ni bukan dalam mood happy. Yaa, it's kinda gloomy. Sebab bulan Disember banyak tinggalkan kesan pada aku. Really. It has taught me many things in life. Kesabaran. Belajar tabah. Bersedia untuk terima kehilangan yang mengubah hidup. Yeah, my life's already changed ever since December 2009. It's almost 2 years since I lost my dad. Hmm, I've accepted it. I've tried to face it, tapi aku tak mampu nak tipu diri sendiri. Rasa tak lengkap tu masih ada. I miss my abah, really really. :'(
I know, aku tak boleh pentingkan diri sendiri. Everything happens for a reason. Maybe Allah loves him more. And it must be hard for my dad too. Seriously, he have to bear the pain. I don't know how he made it. Even we all yang sihat pun rasa lemah. But the moment when he knows he was diagnosed with cancer, I can see that he still can accepted it. He was very strong and patient like he always did. But it really painful for us, me and my family, to see him, the person who used to be the strongest person in my life getting weaker each day until the day we lost him. Semoga abah di tempatkan dalam kalangan orang orang yang beriman. InsyaAllah. Amin.
- Al-fatihah -